DEAD•EYES

I shut my eyes
as the panic begins.
I’m drowning in emotions of all kinds
but it’s all fake within.
I pray to God
as I sink to the end.
My life seems stretched apart at times like this,
with nothing left to send.
Yes, nothing left,
not even some signal
to ask you: what’s it like to feel alive?
My mind’s icy cystal,
clear and empty
and easily shattered.
Oh, I can’t see which way I’m going
through old dreams that mattered.
I feel blinded.
That’s when ice begins to spread,
freezing up my eyelids until I scream,
filling me up with dread.
I’ll disappear
into the freezing layers,

while the piercing cold slows down my heartbeat.
I tossed away my cares
and after all,
I’m just a girl with dead eyes.
I want you to care when I, myself, don’t.
I’m filled with millions of lies –
I can’t believe them.
Please, just at least look at me.
Can I know what it’s like to feel alive?
I’m blind inside; I can’t see.
I’m numb within.
I can’t feel pain anymore.
Shred my heart to pieces, but I won’t wince –
I’m used to sinking lower.
I’m so far down
I’m in an ocean of ice.
I’m alive but I can’t move. I can’t breathe
but I don’t even think twice.
You don’t need me.
It’s okay to pass me by
because I no longer feel anything.

I want to feel alive again.

-Sarah x

15 thoughts on “DEAD•EYES

  1. 🤯Sarah this is so amazing. I really love the drawing and how well it fits the poem. You need to include art for all your poems for now on. And if you ever publish poetry, you need to include illustrations like this. This is just simply amazing.

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  2. wow sarah *wide eyes*
    this is amazing.
    first of all, the DRAWING
    the way you made the eye look glossy and iced-over … it caught my own eye as soon as i saw it in my reader *which was WAYYY too late by the way!*
    and all the other little pieces – the poetry lines – the tears…….it comes together so well. you’re such a wonderful artist, both of words and colors
    and the POEM —– wow.
    the whole theme of ice and crystal and cold gave it its own aura, mood, vibe, whatever you call it – i love it.
    i just hope this feeling came and went fast – i hope you realize that you are vibrantly, colorfully, dazzlingly alive
    the world can’t afford to leave you blinded or frozen – there will be an empty gap without you in it
    stay alive, stay alive, for me ||-//
    ❤ ❤ ❤
    power to the local dreamer ||-//

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    • jul. ❤️ your comment made me feel so warm inside. I will never be able to explain just how much your words mean to me. I honestly don’t deserve the support you’ve shown to me. I’m glad you liked this post. thanks for reading.
      I’m feeling better. idk, I entered this weird slump n stuff – but I’m ok. and this poem isn’t completed yet. it doesn’t end yet. it can’t.
      thank you for your sweet words – they touched me so deeply. you’re such a bright and loving light in this community. thank you. I hope you’re having a good day xx ||-//

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