i hope the first week of this brand new decade has been good for you all. it’s been weird for me… in a good way though. anyways, on new years day my family & i watched a movie & stayed up to watch the clock strike twelve, then i made myself strawberry tea & listened to some mayday parade, chatted with my brothers until two & then attempted to sleep. that was how my year began. how did you start yours?
within this first week i have: tried out a bunch of new art supplies & styles, listened to judah & the lion wayyy too much (iT WaS CLaRA’S FauLT! XD), felt toooo much nostalgia by listening to all the pop hits of the last decade, got over art block, curled my hair for the first time in months & worked on a special project that y’all can’t know about just yet (ooo, i’d better stop talking before i give too much away lol).
but, man, i can’t believe it’s another decade. 2010 seems like so long ago & just yesterday at the same time. it’s going to be a weird decade & very likely one of my most life changing ones – i’m trying to imagine what i’ll be like by the end of it. in ten years time will i have changed much? or not at all? i mean, i’ll hopefully be an adult by then, which probably won’t change me much, if it does at all XD, but it’s crazy to think about. it’s the future! & if i’m being honest, the future is quite a scary thing for me to think about. i kinda just want to stop time right now, yet just keep living in the moment… does anyone else feel that?
to be honest, i wasn’t at all excited for the new year. i mean, it’s just another year *shrugs*. but now, i have a feeling that this year is gunna be a good one. i don’t know why. but, i sense that it’s going to be a hectic year too. in fact, i can’t help but think it’s gunna be the most hectic year of mY LiFE – i honestly have no explanation why! (i’m weird, i know). i have a few big things planned for 2020, which i can’t wait to tell you about, but i think it’s best to wait till a better time XP
as i thought back over the happenings of 2019, at first my heart sank – i’d failed at every goal i’d made. i felt like i’d accomplished nothing. but now, i realise that’s not true. to wrap 2019 up real fast, it was a year filled with changes. i changed a lot. 2019 was also filled with many unexpected happenings which i never saw coming. i made some of my best memories in 2019, i tried new things, made friends & listened to wayyyy too much music. i’d actually achieved quite a bit, just not the things i’d had in mind. yes, i had plenty of bad days but, compared to how 2019 turned out for many others, i have 100% NO right to complain. i was truly blessed with many good memories in 2019 which i know i totally forget to appreciate half the time :v. one of the best things about last year was getting to know new people who just turned into friends & then almost siblings! now that’s an accomplishment to me ^_^
so then, back to reality, it’s 2020! even though i tend to make new year goals, i can never decide on them until the actual year begins *sighs*. this year they’re kinda random & strange but here they are: (perhaps listing them here will keep me motivated )
- spend less time on instagram. (already working on this goal & so far it’s going pretty well :D)
- discover more music. (this one is already going well too. pleasepleaseplease give me music reccs down below)
- cycle somewhere between half an hour & an hour every weekday. (#getfit… MEH!! actually, i just like the idea of cycling everyday – gives me something to do XD)
- work harder at singing practice.
- get outside more. (because firstly, i just keep getting these sudden urges to go outside & secondly, i want to take more photooos)
- focus on the good things in life, not the flaws.
- get into a better sleeping pattern. *snores*
- grow a bigger art fanbase so i can begin selling my work. (not sure how this one will go. to be very honest, i doubt i’ll be selling art this year. i also need to improve my art first before it’s good enough to go on sale lol)
woohoo, that’s them. perhaps they’re too many…? i don’t know *shrugs*. they’re really just basic “guidelines” & even if i fail at most of them i’m still happy to just see how things turn out.
oh, another thing i want to do in 2020 is sort out a proper blogging schedule. i mean, i have the gist of one – i post every wednesday, but i’m working on a more detailed & organized one, which i hope to address more in a future post soon. i’ll probably make a few changes but definitely not drastic ones. anyways, i really need your help! it’s simple, i just need you to take this very short survey right HERE, if you have the time. thank you!
& that, folks, is a wrap to my ramble. i kinda just wanted to take a break from a writing post this week & that’s what i did. how was your 2019? have you got any 2020 goals? what’s one thing you’re excited about the most this year?
*we could conquer the stars beyond this world* ~sarah xx